Beautiful Pain

Have you ever felt writing and you don't know what?
Or to go somewhere and disappear
But you don't know where
Nowhere you could appear
And get accepted for a moment
But you already know that people are so ignorant
Unless you are what they have thought bout you
And you find it so dirt so how could it be
You freeze and try to organise
You look around but still nothing works
That's how we run with the wind
Who I am stays buried in my mind
And the love in my heart
I cry so often
I'm in pain
No, I'm the pain
I feel so wrong about who I am
I'm in pain

I just can't forget
It has been too long, To be honest I haven't tried yet
One thing I know we will never be able to testify
It's just because we won't get it all done in it's own way
Everything happens just for a sudden
Not with a reason
There is Love and their is pain
It's hard to know that nothing is going to be the same
Yeah, they gave me a name
Funny.....I am a psycho
Crazy.....they don't have a clue
Disappointed by Love
Made me and killed my personality
I need something to handle before I go away
I need to have something to hold on
I'm losing control
The only thing I want for all of us is to survive
With everything, we have carried it all deep inside

#Something
@GbeautifulDpainI

No postcards, I want hand writing missive felt with deepest and darkest secrets.

#13ReasonsWhy

When your Love has no limit and it goes on forever, maybe that feels Infinity.

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A giant world.......Infinity world.....Infinity, is a word that we named for a concept without understanding it but maybe Love. Maybe Love is how you understand Infinity.

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Everyday seems like Life Or Death....And at some level nothing matters at all or means anything. But in a real way, we are all just accidents of birth.
After all, we are who we are and that matters.....I sometimes don't know if anything is different without me but later on I realized someone for sure would be different.

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But in the end, the story they told was a lie and was so loud so she could here. She started to believe it and forgot who she was. Its easy to let that happen....to lose yourself....to believe that no one could ever know you or love you.
You are the only person that knows what you are going through and you convince yourself it's going go get better and it doesn't.

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We don't choose who we fall for.

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A lot of us keep holding on
Even when we should let go

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Oh, fruit forbidden
So sour, so sweet
I have been banished from the garden
And I don't think I miss it
And yet I want another bite

#Hannah
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I have no idea who might have done it
I don't know which one of you killed my inner peace
You never appreciated my presence
So I loose control over my anger
Made me to feel powerless
On the way I realized what's better
Better is me, as I am priceless
You chose the dimes over me
Showed me how much cruel the world could be
You loved the unjust
Much more than my desperate heart
Tought me nothing worth
Comes without agony

After all I'm in silence
And its my condolence
Of your senseless reputations
My eyes are so clean
As they have been washed by tears
So I can see through this darkness
I live with memories
I may burn
But at least the flame helps to lighten up someone else


@GbeautifulDpainI

It's like you are living in a stranger's body
And mind, sometimes

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There are people like "Hannah" there and I want them to know some people do care.

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A man, the loneliest
Deep in my heart
Once got off my tiny room in the dark
And started walking by the sidewalk
What came to me was not what I wanted
But its Destiny, I know no one is able to fight
So I kept walking tight
Legs are made so strong
They never get tired to get me out of where I belong
Yet, they don't know where
And I travel miles inside and disappear

I have something to tell you
Listen to me
So I may get a chance to live through you
Listen to me
I'm telling you why
Listen to me
Then words get twisted
I have them all in my head
But couldn't spell a single one
That's how much I'm in pain
I fight not to die but I don't want to win
I want to die but I don't want to stay beside you
But I don't have you
You were my reasons
And now I have nothing to live through

#MyReasons
@GbeautifulDpainI

Some days are better than the others.

Privilege is a trap on its own.

Sometimes no matter what you do
People still see you the way they want to.

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The truth doesn't always make things right.

You are not my savior, just someone I used to see
I am broken and something is wrong inside of me
I feel violence
Like I'm dying

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#SoundTrack

Fear of the truth can keep you trapped in your Secrets.

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