Eternally Awake

A lil kiddo
He looks back at his life filled with regret
He drinks it all off in hopes to forget
reality is it's killing him not filling him
What does he do? You may wonder
He himself does not know so he plunders
Although he have struggled
It doesn't matter
As much as his words flatter
His hopes and dreams all shattered
He realized whatever he did it never mattered
And thou he no longer fucks with love
he now sits down and blames it all above
all he wishes for is some roses on his grave
Cause with the life he lived he was brave
He stayed strong and didn't fall a slave
So what does he do now. Run away?
Ask God and pray? Or end it all?
He realizes there is no end to it except death
So he takes on his last breath
In hopes of the Good
And what's left of it
And realizes his time has come to an end
That he couldn't hold on he couldn't blend
So he looks in the mirror one last time
For he speaks no words to this world he is a mime
Filled with shame realisin that
He threw his name and knew that
His life was a Game
He closes his eyes for the last time
Hoping everything is gonna be fine
Thou
That lil kiddo is now filled with fears
And his eyes are soaked with tears
he brings out the knife
And remembers everything from the start
So he pushes it slowly to his heart
And before it penetrates he hesitates
Cause a thought just crossed his mind
What if he was blind
What if he didn't need to end it all
What if he didn't need a knife
What if reality was he needed a wife
And that was the girl of his dreams
Someone he hasn't met yet
Someone that hasn't filled him with regret
Someone that he can't forget
As he forgets the past later on
He realizes he is his own hero
hours after that he is back to ground zero




They say the eyes are a window to someone's soul and as I stared at your eyes I fell in love with your soul

A woman said unto a man, “I love you.” And the man said, “It is in my heart to be worthy of your love.”
And the woman said, “You love me not?”
And the man only gazed upon her and said nothing.
Then the woman cried aloud, “I hate you.”
And the man said, “Then it is also in my heart to be worthy of your hate.”

There was a Christian bishop in his cathedral on a stormy day, and an un-Christian woman came and stood before him, and she said, “I am not a Christian. Is there salvation for me from hell-fire?”
And the bishop looked upon the woman, and he answered her saying, “Nay, there is salvation for those only who are baptized of water and of the spirit.”
And even as he spoke a bolt from the sky fell with thunder upon the cathedral and it was filled with fire. And the men of the city came running, and they saved the woman, but the bishop was consumed, food of the fire.

Only once have I been made mute. It was when a man asked me, "Who are you?"

They say to me in their awakening, "You and the world you live in are but a grain of sand upon the infinite shore of an infinite sea."
And in my dream I say to them, "I am the infinite sea, and all worlds are but grains of sand upon my shore."

Humanity is a river of light running from the ex-eternity to eternity.

i wanted to leave that as a cliff hanger

Can you elaborate more?

and then there is me.

Maturity levels in 3
1.) Childish:- concerned for ones needs only.

2.) Adolescent:- cares about others conditionally as long as they care back.

3.) Adult:- concerned about things worthy of getting concerned for unconditionally, just for the mere fact that it's the right thing to do.

Loneliness is the mother of all demons

How can I lose faith in the justice of life, when the dreams of those who sleep upon feathers are not more beautiful than the dreams of those who sleep upon the earth?

I'M STILL THE DARKEST ROSE IN THIS EVERGREEN GARDEN
EXCUSE ME FOR MY MANNERS I KNOW I I'M ANTI-SOCIAL I BEG YOUR PARDON
PLEASE I DON'T WANT TO BE INTERRUPTED I KNOW MY SOUL AND HEART ALWAYS BEEN CORRUPTED
INFUSED WITH LIES FILLED BY THE SYSTEM
THESE WORDS SPEAK THE TRUTH SO WATCH HOW THEY TWIST EM

why not tbh it's been a while

"The cornered mouse attacks the cat. But the cat is wise to the mouse's game. The mouse seeks death in order to escape the pain".

you know my name,
not my story.
you see my smile,
not my pain.
you notice my cuts,
not my scars.
you can read my lips,
not my mind.🥀

A sex addict an alcoholic and a chain smoker go to a hypnotist.

The hypnotist tells all three while under hypnosis, if they ever indulge in there vices again they will die immediately after.

On the way back from the hypnotist the 3 men are walking by a bar. The alcoholic can't help himself. He says "fuck it. That guy way full shit. There's no way one little drink will kill me." And goes into the bar. The other 2 men; curious to see what happens, wait for him outside.

Minutes later the alcoholic opens the bar door, takes one step onto the sidewalk and drops dead. The other 2 men men are shocked in disbelief.

The 2 men continue down the street. A man walking towards them flicks an almost full cigarette onto the sidewalk as he goes into a store. The chain smoker stops in front of the cigarette and stares at it. The sex addict says to him "don't do it it man. If you bend over and pick up that smoke we're both fucking dead"