Perspicacious Poetries.

Nothing was left, so what?
Atleast void is there to fill in your name.

You did leave, but what?
Atleast, I have stories to remember.

~© Darkpit

I didn't believe when you
said, heavens meant
to meet us.

For, why would it divide us?

~© Darkpit

Laying inside a broken casket
filled with rose thorns and
jasmine scent.
It reminds me of the day,
you gifted me the book
it smelled of dried jasmine
as if crushed between the pages
just like our friendship did.
You talk to me about,
how all of this was meant to be.
But little did I know,
we were just habits to each other.
I crush the pages, that slip through my
gapped fingers.
Just like how the time passed by
when we were together.
I want you to take back your memories.
I want to erase it,
But you have stained me with
your jasmine incense.
And since, I have been in pain
from your gifted thorns.

~© Darkpit

4. Is That All?
I don't beg you many things, mother.
But when I do, why do words get clogged inside you? I invariably want to be the daughter you always preferred me to. And I try, I try my level best. But sometimes I fail and I am sorry I fail you.
My academics, to be a topper, to be social, to be active. You expect all. Do you really expect that all?
I try mother. I am a serious antisocial, introvert, and whatnot.
Human interaction suffocates me.
But I stay quiet. Just because I know my words don't have any significance in front of you.
But I respect you mother, the way my friend respects her mother despite our differences.
I never got jealous of anything. I always try to be content with whatever God has provided.
I am grateful to have a mom thinking of the fact that others don't
But sometimes you act like I am not there.
I know you are oblivious of me that I know you prefer my brothers.
And I don't have any problem. But why can't you hear me speak when I am bleeding here?
Why can't you hear my silent cries just the way blood drips from my wrists?
But you don't see, mother.
You don't.
You tell me, "you are getting out of hand"
Even tho I don't speak a single word nor do I utter a word back.
Yet you like someone who speaks to you back yet loves them unconditionally?
Little do you know ma. You have lost me years back.
This time too, I will shut up and listen to whatever you have to say, I don't want my doors to heaven to be shut.
I again, don't complain mother.
I furthermore lost the count of months I have cried last.
Because you just made me numb.

-©Darkpit

Daily I fall into the trap of believing in myself again. No, I ain't pessimistic, I just happen to know my reality.

And so where my pen-name lies.

~©Darkpit

When you love someone you give them what they love, not what you think they love.

~©Darkpit

And I have been broken.
But the thing about broken people is that
you won't really know they are broken
unless they want you to know.
The irony is at some part they want to let people know that they aren't fine.
That they have rough nights too almost every day.
But the smiles you make it look like "real happiness" isn't what they want to hear
They want you to read the space between the lines they recite.
Between the gap, they wanna repel.
Unfortunately, they are too dark for their own problems. And thus same forces repel.
You don't know about anyone's life.
Yet you trick yourself into thinking you do.
No matter how close someone can be with a person.
They have corners they don't people in.
It's just how the nature is

Cuz after all they are broken.

-©Darkpit

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You look at yourself in the mirror and despise every single thing that it shows,
But then you have a roof, food, proof that you are better than millions and not even thousands. And yet you find yourself drenched in the dirt?

You can despise your eyes to not be blue or grey.
But why don't you be thankful that for the sight you can see?

Definition of happiness does fluctuate from person to person but being not grateful for the minor miseries we complain about is an excuse for not wanting to be happy. We all are gifted, we just do not happen to realize it.

~© Darkpit.

It was more than a heartbreak
It was the trust, the promise, the love.
everything that you told me you would give.
It's just not the pain of losing you.
It's the things that come along with you.
The way you talked, the way you made me laugh, the way you made me have butterflies in my stomach.

Why was all of that so easy for you?
When I am here regretting and hurting?
I wasn't the one to come up with a proposal.
But you made me fall in love.
And how's that my fault?

There can be no such thing as numbness when the pieces of your heart have been scattered all around.
How many pieces will you pick up and numb?
Life is a game. You played well.

-©Darkpit

"Stop complaining about situations that you have chosen to settle in"

~© Darkpit

Why is it so hard to believe in the existence of something that really does exist?

...and suddenly all the fingers that were once pointing at me came answered.

~© Darkpit

They tell me to snap out of it
if only they knew how hard I have tried
if only they knew how many tears I have cried.

Snap out of it, everyone says
I wish they could know it doesn't work that way
And understand the hurtful things they say.

If only I could snap out of it.
To chase the darkness away from my head.
Want to live as much as I wish I were dead.

I'd snap out of it if I could
I'd love to feel alive and like myself again.
Think of the future, instead of the end.

-©Darkpit

The feeling of never being good enough is not like a wind. Where it comes, destroys, and then leaves.

It's a hurricane. It stays like a visitor. Destroys you like a fake friend. Stabs you like your brother and buries you like a mom.

-© Darkpit.

It's useless to talk about the past when you know you were the only one suffering.

Some stories are supposed to be left untold while others are just not meant to be spoken but understood.

~© Darkpit

All the things that doesn't kill you, simply makes you a stranger.


~© Darkpit.

I always wanted you to leave. But now that's happening, why isn't there the peace I always wanted from your absence?

Or all those years I lived in a plain lie thinking your absence was the reason behind my shattered peace when all the way it was me who couldn't let me sleep.

~© Darkpit.

The one who was never scared of losing me.

How am I supposed to believe that my presence or absence ever mattered to them?

~© Darkpit

And I see you're smiling right now. But then you suddenly remember every bad thing that happened to you, everything that you suffered. You find yourself crashing like a meteor. You start giving justification for their actions. When all they did was hurt you and threw your feelings like a paper ball into the trash. And you are here trying to forgive them?

It will never be okay of what they did to you, so stop justifying. But you need to forgive not because they deserve it but because you deserve freedom and peace. And all the love. Take care, someone too out there is looking up at stars just like you. You are not alone, you never will be.

~© Darkpit