Hell.

In the end it will all end sadly. Everyone must have experienced sad and happy things but most of them will feel sadness first then will feel pleasure, but why am I different? Do I really have to feel pleasure and then be made to feel deep sadness? Honestly, the universe is good but it only favors some people. I'm not one of them all hahaha.

And I think even when it comes to love, I feel like a complete failure at it. Always lose to people who are lucky to get my crush. Always fail to make my crush feel comfortable with me. Yes, I know I'm that bad, but do I really have to feel that way? I'm a little jealous of those who can feel healthy love.

But from all of that, I'm happy to be myself, to be able to accept myself like this, always feel grateful and patient and always try to be the best and always try to be better.