Despite the selfless love we shared; the harsh was the selfishness that we felt when i am about to leave. She called me the day before i was leaving, when i was crushed alone in the thought of losing her i picked the phone and i hear her voice which is obvious that she was crying "why did you get this close to me knowing you leave anyway huh?! Don't you know how much i am suffering..." her sob interrupted and she hold up the phone. But i was crushed completely after that. how selfish am i to let myself to have and to lose her.