Due to personal conditions and maybe a general lack of actual understanding and discipline, I've always struggled with getting that emotional attachment I see many people have with God.

God for me is as much of a certainty as air, but that's exactly it. I'm not mad about air. I don't feel this deep connection to air. But it's there. I know that it's there and I can't believe any other gas is in its place.

This is a topic that gives me deep shame and often leads me towards extremely dry paths of spiritual barrenness, as without emotion all I'm left with is a deep conviction and the need for discipline. And I struggle with being disciplined my entire life.

This short video can be found in its full form here, and if you feel like me, know that I also feel like that. And that apparently more people do, and that never stopped them.

Let's pray for each other and go on into this battle with whatever weaponry God gives us.