BefoUr.

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ✩ ★ ✩

ㅤㅤ𝕴 sit here wondering what to write. So many thoughts rush in and out of my head. Thoughts of 𝐡𝐚𝐭𝐞, 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞, 𝐩𝐚𝐢𝐧 but it all bullshit. That I cant write down one feeling makes me wonder what do I feel, when I told my ex I loved him was it real or just mix emotions. I really don't know, I see all kind of people going by. They all look like they know what is going on but me I don't its hard for me to 𝓮𝔁𝓹𝓻𝓮𝓼𝓼 𝓶𝔂 𝓼𝓮𝓵𝓯 . Its hard for me to do anything that is me. I get so lost in the confusion. Even now that I write words change and I have to go back and put them the way I think I want them. It's sad that I have to write this because I have nothing to say that is my own. Everything in the past now is question in the first really thing that is mine. I now write about the first emotion that I know is real because it been there my whole life. I don't know where to go what to do, other then try to find a little hint of light to get out of the darkness well the thing I leave now with is a 𝕘𝕠𝕠𝕕 𝕓𝕪𝕖.

★☆ The life that I live, I am; Seanna Aileen Miese. This thing that can not be the question that I ask is 'If'. 'If' is more then I can see but the beautiful child cry. The trees dead were they lie
all was lost, all is found once you are in the ground.

ㅤㅤㅤㅤ🧩 My Beautifully-Chaotic.

Have a dream within a dream but now I fly high like never before. Like the bird that canʼt soar, I lose the light from the candle. The thing it cant hide my own fate, the irror is broken in to thousand peaces. And now see only parts of me.
I trying to tame the wild beast, I lose the reason why I bleed. Love is lost, hate is found the pain does not make a sound. And now you look at me with eyeless eyes. you don't see the real me, I can hide what is inside. Life is more then I want right now, chaos is not what i vowed. I still look at what is in front like the hawk on the hunt. I try to shake these lost dream it stands like the dark ghost. He has came for me it seems. My life is a party with out a host. The life I live is an unloved passion.