` aesthete 🌙

Bintang-Bintang Jatuh

Aku bebaskan namamu
yang pernah kukurung di jemariku

Ia telah pergi
setelah engkau yang melontar belati
berderai kaca dadaku.

Aku biarkan ia berlalu
ketika bintang-bintang jatuh
dari langit yang tak lagi tertulis namaku.

@sigadispuisi🌻

Sickened Serenity

My wounds are swelling again,
cause you let me alone beloved.
My nightmares are killing entertain,
since you left me alone in this bed.

My eyes are screaming aloud
and it utterances spoke your name incorrect.
My heart's serenity searching your signs,
and tell me where you have gone my beloved?

@sigadispuisi🌻

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Do you wanna know her?
Do you wanna try?
Her life's a little complicated
Let me tell you why
She feels unloved unwanted
She cries 6 times a day
Her heart is nearly broken
She's in a lot of pain
She cuts herself to feel
That's how she plays her games
She smiles at the blade
Like blood is summer rain

Do you still wanna know her?
Do you still wanna try?
Her life's still a little complicated
Let me tell you why
Besides her scars from cutting
She's got bruises everywhere
Her mother tends to hit her
And doesn't even care
Her dads an alcoholic
He screams and yells at night
And when he's finally finished
He says she'll be alright

So are you scared to know her?
Are you scared to try?
Do you think her life's a little complicated?
If not let me tell you why,
She screams and cries for help
Maybe a way out
She's trapped in a world of hate
A world of lies and tears
She lies on her bed at night
And wonders "Why am I still here?"
And when she falls asleep
Nightmares haunt her dreams

So are you still scared to know her?
Are you still scared to try?
Do you think her life's complicated?
Too late that girl died,
They found her on her bed
Her throat slit every which way
They waved her death away
Like it was an everyday thing
She didn't deserve to die
She deserved to live
But I guess when you live in hell
Heaven always wins.

draft, 2021
@sigadispuisi🌻

Dear friend,
never forget that we have
al-Jabbar, and that we depend on al-Fatah.
The One who fixes everything imaginable
and beyond, and the One who opens doors,
paths and ways, all things, all ways.

So, when our heart is pierced, shattered, cracking, breaking, please turn to Him. Turn to Him.
And when our eyes are blinded, shut, screened and unable to see, numb and cold,
ask for Him, ask for Him.

“ O Allah, there is no ease other than what you make easy, and if You wish, You can ease sorrow. So, ease for me in all that best for me and my Deen. InsyaAllah amin ”

Dear friend,
I hope you'll get through this.
May Allah ease —🤍


2021, 25September
@sigadispuisi🌻

Mungkin cara melupakan
sama seperti tidur.

Yang bermula dengan merehatkan mata
lalu berpura-pura sedang tidur,
sehingga kantuk menjelma
mengheret ke alam mimpi.

Begitu juga dengan melupakan.

Bermula dengan rehatkan hati
lalu berpura-pura lupa,
sehingga diganggu fikiran baru
membawa ke alam kebiasaan lagi.

Tetapi sejujurnya,
alangkah indahnya jika rehatkan hati
itu semudah rehatkan mata.


—JIW∆
@sigadispuisi

To you who are struggling,
who are in much need of all wishes and prayers.
To you who are stumbling,
who finds it hard to stand and walk on.
To you who are juggling, tired and exhausted,
heart breaking, unable to speak with tears
streaming fast and hands trembling,
To you, and you. And you.

Things will get better soon,
everything will be good soon, insyaAllah.
So hang in there, just a bit more.
The flowers will bloom, the sun will rise.
So let's try again.
Reach out for a helping hand, an cager ear and draw
your strength. Let's try again.

May Allah ease for you, and grant your heart the
peace and calm again soon, insyaAllah.

[ aisyy | 12 September 2021 ]
@sigadispuisi🌻

I'm fighting & I'm losing,
trying my best to be strong.
I'm falling & I'm failing,
being proven that I'm wrong.

I'm screaming & I'm drowning,
falling to my knees & crying.
I'm lying & I'm pretending,
but deep down I know I'm dying.

I'm running & I'm frightened,
I've already lost the fight.
I'm slowing & I'm stopping,
giving it the greatest delight.

—writers thought
@sigadispuisi🌻

And I have been broken.
But the thing about broken people is that
you won't really know they are broken
unless they want you to know.
The irony is at some part they want to let people know that they aren't fine.
That they have rough nights too almost every day.
But the smiles you make it look like "real happiness" isn't what they want to hear
They want you to read the space between the lines they recite.
Between the gap, they wanna repel.
Unfortunately, they are too dark for their own problems. And thus same forces repel.
You don't know about anyone's life.
Yet you trick yourself into thinking you do.
No matter how close someone can be with a person.
They have corners they don't people in.
It's just how the nature is

Cause after all they are broken.

@sigadispuisi🌻

I'm so confused,
What am I gonna do?

I have nothing but these dreams
That I want to come true.

Dreams, I see about making them proud
But how, will I find water in this drought?

I think that in the end, everything will be alright
But that's just me, denying the truth before my sight.

I did as they said, I didn't want them to scold
But flames of my life are now getting dimmer and cold.

I wanted to be loved but this torment I did gain
And no one seems to notice my sorrow and this pain.

Very bold of them, they told me not to take stress
But can't they just realize, how painful is this mess?

I thought it would get easier,
When I suffer all the way through.

But see how confused I'm now,
What am I gonna do?

- Umar Ansari
@sigadispuisi🌻

I walked away,
from something forbidden,
from someone who's never mine.

You walked away,
from the love that was never enough,
from the future that will never happen.

I left behind,
a little more than few poems,
a little less heartbreak than mine.

You left behind,
a lot of unsaid words,
a lot of hurt from the said.

I put them all, in a box under my bed,
a million words you spoke,
and a billion you didn't.

You erased them all
like the waves washed the shore,
like love written on the sand.

—poet
@sigadispuisi🌻

PEJAM

“ Perempuan,
di pejam matamu
tuhan menerbitkan rindu,
cahaya tunggal
yang memandu mimpimu

habiskan kopimu itu, sayang
lekas cari diri,
jangan biar mentari terbit
saat sepasang mata
tak sedia berjaga. ”

@sigadispuisi🌻

I was the river,
When you wanted an ocean.

I was the moon,
When you admired the stars.

I was silver,
When you preferred gold.

I was a bottle of beer,
When you liked a glass of whiskey.

I was just all you could need,
But not all you could want.

Maybe when our souls are ready,
We'll meet again.

credit : unknown
@sigadispuisi🌻

You are...
Not just a chapter,
You are the whole book.

Not just a sip,
You are the whole bottle.

Not just a raindrop,
You are the whole ocean.

Not just a star,
You are the whole galaxy.

Not just a part in me,
You are my whole life.

Not just someone,
You are everything.

credit : unknown
@sigadispuisi🌻