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📝 [ HFW ] warm regards to the sweet creatures out there. so here, i'm looking for new mutuals to do subs-for-subs with me, please write ur username below if you're willing to be one of my mutuals 😸👋.

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ㅤ༄⸼۪❀˟‌ 𝓘think we've been taught from such a young age that happiness is meant to be this big, all consuming thing. That it is this moment that cracks open our bones and changes our lives and sweeps all of the weight inside of us away. That it is something that is awarded to us, gifted to us by the world. That it is something we are always in pursuit of until we find it. But I don't think happiness is big, or infinite, at all. I think real happiness, true happiness, exists in the acceptance of the fact that we will always be balancing what is light and dark within ourselves. I think real happiness, true happiness, exists in the quiet.

ㅤ༄⸼۪❀˟‌ 𝓘think real happiness is believing that you are meant to be here, that you are meant to take up space in this world. I think real happiness is findingg the human beings who take care of you not in a materialistic way, but rather, finding the human beings who take care of your soul, who take care of even the most chaotic parts of who you are. I think real happiness, true happiness is all around you, at all times, pinned and blooming in the things you stopped paying attention to because you were always searching for more. Flowers on your walk to work. The intensity in the air when you meet someone and you know they're going to change your life. The way your stomach flips when you hear your favourite song. The way your person's eyelashes feel as they blink across your neck when you're holding them.

ㅤ༄⸼۪❀˟‌ 𝓐nd I don't think happiness is something you find, or that it is this destination you get to where the night never comes and you are bulletproof and unaffected by the mayhem. I think the mayhem will always exist-we are literally made from it, we wouldn't even be here if it weren't for the crashing and the banging of atoms within this Universe. No, I think happiness exists in the understanding that the pain holds just as much importance as the beauty. I think happiness exists in finding the things that make us feel known, and special, and at peace in this world, no matter how small or insignificant they feel, and letting them save us. I think happiness exists in leaning how to embrace the dark, in learning how to see it as the very thing that makes us appreciate the light.

ㅤ༄⸼۪❀˟‌ 𝓨ou deserve to be loved the way you love others. You deserve to feel seen. You deserve to sleep beside someone who does not try to quiet your heartbeat, or your passion, or the way you show up in this world. You deserve to be with the kind of person who loves all of your twists and does not try to untie them. You deserve to love someone who does not judge you for the ways in which you had to heal your sadness, someone who does not hold your past against you. You deserve to be chosen and to never be loved in halves. You deserve someone who is sure of you: you deserve someone who stays.

ㅤ༄⸼۪❀˟‌ 𝓗owever, you also deserve to be this person for yourself. So please, stand up for your heart. Defend it. Know when to walk away from the people who cannot love you the way you deserve to be loved, because a love bred out of convenience, a love that caters to our need for attention rather than passion, is a love that will not inspire you when you roll over at 6am to embrace it. Strive to discover foundational love, the kind of relationship that motivates you to be a better human being, the kind of intimacy that is rare rather than right there.

ㅤ༄⸼۪❀˟‌ 𝓤ntil then be alone for your capacity to be alone, your capacity to be your own home. your own foundation, is going to directly reflect the way you love these human beings when they come into your life. When you know yourself, when you stand up for your heart, you do not bankrupt who you are just to keep half-loves in your life. Love becomes less about filling a void, love becomes less about possession, less about dependence, and it transforms into something that can be fully and deeply appreciated and felt, because you are not afraid that its loss will destroy you. You are not afraid of being without it, because you know that you will always have yourself.

ㅤ༄⸼۪❀˟‌ 𝓐fter a while, the hurt hurts less. You start to see reason, understand why they did what they did. Knowing that it takes two hands to clap. Learn, that not everyone you meet will stay in your life forever. Sometimes, they're a passing character in a chapter of your book. There to teach you a certain lesson, to help you experience different things in life- different emotions, to grow, and maybe to show you how to love yourself better. Find your worth. Some of these characters will be difficult to replace when their time has come to an end in a chapter of your life. But, it is important to learn and to see the necessity to let them go, even if you don't want to. At the beginning, it will hurt. It's the kind of hurt that will leave you crying till you fall asleep at 3 am, puffy eyes, nose blocked and swollen. The kind of hurt that follows you everywhere- reminding you of the memories you had once shared.

ㅤ༄⸼۪❀˟‌ 𝓐t particular places you pass by the hurt that leaves you thinking if you ever meant anything to them. Heartbreak is inevitable, especially with the people you love. But if its one thing 've learned: you cannot have expectations. You can't expect them to love you back the same way you love them, with the same amount of intensity, and that my friend is the sad truth. The way you love someone that does not determine the way that person is going to love you back. You can have multiple connections with people, but that does not necessarily mean that they are meant for you, and darling, its the same with love. This applies to both friendships and relationships, as we hate to admit it.

ㅤ༄⸼۪❀˟‌ 𝓗owever, you do not have to hate them. You do not have too remember their contribution to your life as anything but beautiful. Do not ruin them in your mind, do not grip until you feel resentment. Instead, love them without attachment. Love the lessons they taught you. Wish them well every single time you think about them. Miss them, but do not ache for them to come back. If the people in your life left because they were not ready to value you, or love you, or be there for you, do not wish for them back, do not ask for them to be more than they can be at the moment. Wish for them to figure themselves out. Wish for them to grow. They are on their own journey -a journey you are not a part of. And that is okay. You have to learn that that is okay.

ㅤ༄⸼۪❀˟‌ 𝓢o instead of focusing on the people who left, focus on the people in your life who have chosen to be there. Focus on the ones who stayed, on the ones who appreciate you and respect you. Focus on the people who match the love you give them, focus on the people who empower you and grow you and make your life beautiful. You are surrounded by human beings who will not shy away from the love you give. You are surrounded by human beings who know that they want you in their life, people who show you that every single day. Do not take them for granted. Do not lose touch of what you have, chasing what you no longer do.

ㅤ༄⸼۪❀˟‌ 𝓣rust me when I say- you will miss out on beautiful things if you continue to stay rooted in all of the ways you were wronged, if you continue to let your past pull you from experiencing what the present has to offer you. Do not close yourself off to your potential. Instead, open yourself to the world, and allow for it to fill that space with the kinds of people, the kinds of moments, and the kinds of experiences that exhilarate you, that compel you that make you love yourself, and your life, and what you have to offer, more and more each day.