I'm Sorry I Did Horrible Things And That I'm A Horrible Person. I Can't Even Use Mental Illness As An Excuse; I Am Aware Of All I Did And All I Am Still Doing...And The Fact You're Still With Me Baffles Me. I'm Not Trying To Force You Away. I'm Not Trying To Damage What We Have. I'm Damaging Myself Because I'm Not Worthy Of Anything Positive. I'm Lost In My Own Head And I Can't Let Myself Ruin This.....