Stay up every single night staring at your phone either attempting to gather up the courage to turn these demons, these constant reminders of your loneliness into nothing more than a bad dream or praying just for one second you could feel the warmth of equally returned love.
Go out for coffee four times a week by yourself. Always bring your notebook, never stop writing. Leave little comics and thank you notes with your tip
Watch them smile as you get in your car. Talk down on yourself whenever possible " My life is shit because I deserve it, right? You must have done something real bad, It's nearly impossible for you to cry now "