#Storytime
I think obsession is what really matters.
These days everything I do studying, learning, practicing ..it all feels like something I have to do.
I finish a task and immediately think about rewarding myself, hanging out, scrolling, anything… and after that moment I don’t even look back. In short, I’m not obsessed anymore.
But I remember back in high school, Grade 10 and 11, bro I was DIFFERENT.
I was obsessed with electronics (specially Transistors 😄), electricity, physics… DIY projects , Arduino ( My friend had the UNO R3 board )
I didn’t even realize it at the time, I just loved it. I did more than 20 experiments in one year in the lab with my instructor, writing reports carefully and actually enjoying the process.
We didn’t even have WiFi at home at that time ( at 2022 ) but later we had , I used to stand at my neighbor’s door with my Huawei phone 😭 downloading like 20, 30, even 50 YouTube videos at once.
And the craziest part ? Believe it or not.. I would watch the same playlist more than 10 times, not because I had to but because it made me happy, curious, alive.
Then Grade 12 came, EUEE pressure hit, slowly that obsession disappeared. After that I joined AAU and everything became about grades.
Since then I still like doing things, but that deep curiosity, that hunger, that obsession… it’s gone.
Now I code, learn and build projects, and I even have really big plans and ambitions ahead… but the question is still there...
how can I be obsessed again with something important ?