i want it to end i want to turn into nothingness i want to feel nothing be nothing and then there won’t be anything bothering me anymore cause there’s no me there’s no brain no soul no energy no nothing but i can’t do that i can’t scape this is hell
i can’t even kill myself cause the feeling of guilt of the fact that my death is gonna make the people around me sad almost chokes me it’s like i’m suffocating under the sea and i can’t move i can’t swim to get to the surface i can’t breathe yet i can’t die