The Story Of A Crying Soul

Written by: @lifelesstory
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Wahai wanita bila ada lelaki yang bersikap baik padamu anggap saja itu perkara biasa sebab memang naluri seorang lelaki bersikap baik pada perempuan.

Bila bukumu jatuh dan dia tolong ambilkan itu normal tidak ada yang special jangan perasan bila bertemu di jalan dan dia mengucapkan salam bukan bermakna dia tertarik tetapi dia sedang menjalankan kewajipannya sebagai seorang muslim.

Apabila di antara kawan kawanmu hanya kamu yang disapa jangan perasan itu biasa biasa sahaja bila dia menyebut namamu hanya sapa jadi ? tiada apa apa pun mungkin kebetulan cuma nama kamu yang dia ingat kebetulan jangan perasan bila sampai satu tahap dia berjumpa dengan ibu bapa kamu sekalipun belum tentu dia mahu menjadikan kamu sebagai yang halal kerana mungkin kamu adalah pilihan kedua, ketiga dan keempat atau entah sudah yang keberapa.

Dia mahu tengok tengok sahaja dahulu jangan perasan kadang rasa kecewa itu datangnya daripada kita sendiri sebab kita selalu keliru dalam mentafsir sikap lelaki memang lumrah seorang perempuan mudah terbuai oleh perasaan oleh itu.

Wahai lelaki bila ada perempuan yang sedang bersedih jangan kamu datang untuk menghiburkannya jangan biarkan dia perasan tak perlu tawarkan bantuan bila kau lihat dia boleh melakukan sesuatu kerja sendiri atau bila kawannya boleh membantu jangan biarkan dia perasan.

Jangan bergurau dengannya tentang soal hati bergurau tentang perasaan dengan seorang perempuan bukanlah sesuatu yang lucu jangan biarkan dia perasan jaga kehormatan seorang wanita dengan tidak bersikap manis pada mereka kerana banyak perkara yang tidak disengajakan yang boleh menyebabkan mereka perasan dan wanita jangan mudah jatuh hati atas kebaikan seseorang lelaki terhadapmu barangkali itu memang sikapnya berbuat baik pada semua.

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𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑘 𝑌𝑜𝑢 (𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝐷𝑎𝑦 𝑌𝑜𝑢 𝐶𝑜𝑛𝑓𝑒𝑠𝑠 𝑌𝑜𝑢 𝐴𝑙𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑑𝑦 𝐻𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑆𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝐸𝑙𝑠𝑒)

𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑘 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 EX.
𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑘 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑓𝑎𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒.
𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑘 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑐ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑚𝑒.
𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑘 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑏𝑒𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑦𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑚𝑒.
𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑘 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑤𝑎𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑚𝑦 𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑒𝑠.
𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑘 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑖𝑛𝑣𝑒𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑓𝑎𝑘𝑒 ℎ𝑜𝑝𝑒𝑠 𝑡𝑜 𝑚𝑒.
𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑘 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑓𝑜𝑜𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑚𝑒.
𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑘 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑔𝑎𝑚𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑚𝑒.
𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑘 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑚𝑒 𝑘𝑒𝑒𝑝 𝑎𝑤𝑎𝑖𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑦𝑜𝑢.
𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑘 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑟𝑢𝑖𝑛𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑚𝑦 𝑑𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑚𝑠.
𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑘 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑓𝑜𝑟 ℎ𝑢𝑟𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑚𝑒.
𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑘 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑔𝑖𝑣𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑐ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑐𝑒𝑠 𝑡𝑜 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢.
𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑘 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑔𝑖𝑣𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑚𝑒 𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑒𝑠 𝑡𝑜 𝑚𝑖𝑠𝑠 𝑦𝑜𝑢.
𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑘 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑏𝑟𝑜𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑚𝑦 ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑡.
𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑘 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑐ℎ𝑜𝑜𝑠𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑚𝑒 𝑎𝑠 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑡𝑎𝑟𝑔𝑒𝑡 𝑡𝑜 𝑏𝑒 𝑓𝑜𝑜𝑙𝑒𝑑.
𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑘 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑠𝑒𝑙𝑒𝑐𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑚𝑒 𝑎𝑠 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑣𝑖𝑐𝑡𝑖𝑚.
𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑘 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑡𝑒𝑙𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑚𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑡𝑟𝑢𝑡ℎ.
𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑘 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑐𝑜𝑛𝑓𝑒𝑠𝑠𝑖𝑛𝑔.
𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑘 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑎𝑑𝑚𝑖𝑡𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔.
𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑘 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 EX.
𝐼 𝑎𝑝𝑝𝑟𝑒𝑐𝑖𝑎𝑡𝑒 𝑠𝑜 𝑚𝑢𝑐ℎ 𝑜𝑛 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦 𝑠𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑙𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑠 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑑𝑖𝑑 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑠𝑎𝑖𝑑.
𝐼 𝑎𝑝𝑝𝑟𝑒𝑐𝑖𝑎𝑡𝑒 𝑠𝑜 𝑚𝑢𝑐ℎ 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑟𝑒𝑙𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛𝑠ℎ𝑖𝑝 𝑠𝑖𝑛𝑐𝑒 2015.
𝑇ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒'𝑠 𝑛𝑜𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑚𝑢𝑐ℎ 𝐼 𝑐𝑎𝑛 𝑠𝑎𝑦 𝑛𝑜𝑤.
𝐼 𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑘 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔.
𝐼 𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑠𝑎𝑦 𝑠𝑜𝑟𝑟𝑦 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔.
𝐾𝑛𝑜𝑤𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑖𝑠 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑏𝑒𝑠𝑡 𝑔𝑟𝑎𝑐𝑒 𝑖𝑛 𝑚𝑦 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒.
𝐼 𝑎𝑐𝑐𝑒𝑝𝑡 𝑚𝑦 𝑓𝑎𝑡𝑒.
5 𝑦𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑠 𝑛𝑜𝑤 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑠𝑜𝑟𝑟𝑦 EX, 𝑤𝑒 𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑚𝑒𝑎𝑛 𝑡𝑜 𝑏𝑒 𝑡𝑜𝑔𝑒𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟.
𝐼'𝑣𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑖𝑡𝑒𝑑 𝑓𝑜𝑟 5 𝑦𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑠 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔'𝑠 𝑑𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑒𝑛𝑑𝑒𝑑.
𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑘 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑏𝑒𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑝𝑎𝑟𝑡 𝑜𝑓 𝑚𝑦 𝑠𝑜𝑢𝑙.
𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑘 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑏𝑒𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑝𝑎𝑟𝑡 𝑜𝑓 𝑚𝑦 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒.
𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑘 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑙𝑒𝑡𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑚𝑒 𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑦𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑖𝑛 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑡 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑛𝑡ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑔ℎ 𝑖𝑡 𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑎 𝑓𝑎𝑘𝑒.
𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑘 𝑦𝑜𝑢, 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑘 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑘 𝑦𝑜𝑢.
𝐼 𝑔𝑖𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑔𝑖𝑣𝑒𝑛𝑒𝑠𝑠 𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟.
𝑇𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑐𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑑 ℎ𝑜𝑝𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 ℎ𝑎𝑝𝑝𝑦, 𝑐ℎ𝑒𝑒𝑟, 𝑗𝑜𝑦 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑒𝑛𝑗𝑜𝑦 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑡𝑜𝑔𝑒𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟.
𝑊𝑖𝑠ℎ 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑓𝑢𝑡𝑢𝑟𝑒 𝑚𝑎𝑟𝑟𝑖𝑎𝑔𝑒 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑏𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑙𝑎𝑠𝑡 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑏𝑜𝑡ℎ 𝑜𝑓 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑔𝑢𝑦𝑠.
𝐴𝑎𝑚𝑖𝑖𝑛.

𝑆𝑢𝑛𝑑𝑎𝑦
15 𝑀𝑎𝑟𝑐ℎ 2020
12:00

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Kategori puisi : Peserta kelima
Di tulis oleh : -Ullie-

Buatmu pencinta duniawi

Aku selalu bertanya pada kesepian ,
apa ia suka terlalu dikenali ?
atau ia sama saja seperti aku ?
yang suka diam diam seorang
tapi tak suka berada di kesepian ?

lewat malam memberi kebahagiaan
pada jiwa tertentu ,
tak hanya merenung ke bintang
dan fikir tentang seseorang ,
tapi suasananya yang berbicara
pada jiwa yang kelam ,

Ramai yang habiskan malamnya
dengan sia sia tahu tahu saja sudah siang , bila ditanya ,

“ apa yang dia lakukan ?”
dia jawab.

“ cuma bangun untuk yang ada di tangannya “

Tahajud nya berlalu begitu saja ,
tuhannya memanggilnya ,
tapi dia tersenyum dikaburi duniawi ,
lalu dia bertanya .

“ mengapa hidupnya sulit”
“ mengapa rezeki nya tak cukup “
“mengapa doanya tak dijawab”.

padahal jawapannya dirinya sendiri ,

Andai saja dia tau ,
penciptanya seolah mengganggap
dia saja hambanya ,
tapi hambanya seperti mempunyai
ratusan tuhan untuk disembah ,

Jadi harus bagaimana lagi ,
untuk dia sedari ?
apa solusinya mati saja ?

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Category short story : Eight participants
Written by : Nurul
Title: I'm complete

Story:

"Oh Allah. I ask for your forgiveness for all the sins that I have committed either the big or the small ones, either intentionally or unintentionally. Please forgive me. Please forgive my dearest ones. Please forgive them who teared me apart"

Here I am praying to my God, asking for the same thing over and over again because I knew that no one will ever escape from making mistakes whether it's coincidence or not. Little did I know, my cheeks became wet from the tears that I shed.

I don't know about other people but I've been mentally hurt. Mentally hurt by the people whom I trusted and loved as 'friends'. I knew that I was an introvert and I knew that I was never a 'close friend' to others. But, the years that I've spent with my classmates, I can not lie that a sprout of love grown in my heart towards them. They felt like a family. A second family where we can joke around, fight around, and share the joy and tears.

But, I realise that I've never opened up to them. I'm really shy and most importantly I'm scared that people won't understand once I opened up myself towards them. I'm scared. I also realise that I've never been a 'real part of them'.

One day, I spoke at the wrong time with the wrong people. Some of them started blaming me meanwhile others stayed quiet. And the one who continuously blaming me was a 'big group of bff'. They even declared that we had no friendship, called me dogs and some other 'bad things'. They knew that I was alone. I had no one to back me up, to support me at the time. Later, I stopped talking to them because I felt kinda betrayed. I felt my love for them slowly vanishing. I cried behind my parents' back. There was no one that could share a shoulder for me to cry on.

During these times, we were having a big exam and I was mentally unprepared since the incident happen. But, I vent out towards the Almighty. I asked for His guidance and His forgiveness. I realise that I also made a mistake. However, they should have given advice to me in a 'nicer way'. But NO. Once people find our mistakes, they would turn their backs towards us.

Nowadays, we should learn to actually fix the problem instead of blaming people who was responsible for it. Instead of blaming, teach and give advice to them. We should remember that people can always change, either become worst or be a better version of themselves.

Gladly, I can still breath freely and taste the sweetness and bitterness of this life. I'm now learning how to be alone and how to stand up for myself. With Allah, the Almighty, I'm complete.

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I’m busy but not in the way most people accept . I’m busy calming my fear and finding my courage . I’m busy listening to my kids . I’m busy getting in touch with what is real . I’m busy growing things and connecting with the natural world . I’m busy questioning my answers . I’m busy being present in my life .

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The other one is the good one and the other one is “ the protective one “ and when the other side of herself tend to become very protective it could also turned into very aggressive and at times when it’s happening to her she also having this urge and feeling of wanting to hurt them and the other side of herself will also approaching her to take that actions in order to protect her ownselves from a percieved threats.

When she turned into the other side of herself there are times she feels like wanting to starts her own riots by crashing them all people who hurted her feelings and messed up with her mind by driving the car to them and just crashed them if only they are actually in-front of her face by that time.

She have this thought in her mind that by crashing these people perhaps will gives her the utmost satisfactions in order to release all the angers that they cause into herself that is also somehow consuming her ownselves by losing control of her own angers.

As those people who tend to provokes and threating herself is deserves to be given some lessons so they will learned how to behave themselves in a proper manners to remind them to be careful of how they will treat some people cause what they do to others really has a funny way of coming back to them.

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She have two different personality one for the world and one for herself

She have this personality that is very contradicting with what she truly is but somehow it's living there inside of herself but no one knows about this reality other than only herself.

It's just really hard to explained what she is feeling some people say it's the individual bipolar and there is nothing that she need to be worried about as that was she’s been informed by the doctor that she went to meet.

She decided for the first time in her lives and tell herself that it is best that she meet with professional doctor cause she really wanted to understand what is really happening to herself and that is actually for the first time in her lives when she finally made up her mind to seek for a professional help.

As she really wanted to knows what is happening to herself and she is actually very worried of her ownselves and she keep asking herself why at times when she lost control over her ownselves she have this urge and feeling in her mind that tend to become very aggressive and protective and she also told the doctor that she is starting to get very worried of her own conditions .

As there was a time when she was provokes by some strangers she lost control over herself and by that time when it happens to her she is nearly going to hurt that person and the fact is, if it’s not because of something that distracted her attentions for some seconds that time what she have thought in her mind is only one thing is to actually do it. The brutal truth is she’s intending to just drive her car and crashed that person by droving the car onto him when she really lost control over herself that time that is thoughts that is somehow playing in her mind over and over again.

She becomes very worried of herself conditions and then she went to seek professional helps without taking any longer and that is the reasons to what brings her to meet the doctor and she also have told the doctor everything and there are actually not even a single details that she missed telling the doctor the entire time when the doctor asking her questions she is been honest to everything and she even told the doctor that at times why is she having that feelings there is something that is not right with herself why at times she felt that she is having a two different personality.

But the doctor she went to meet tell her that everyone have their own bipolar that tend to protect themselves and she dont have any serious issues about that and there is no need to be precautious of her conditions she’s just very stressed and so the doctor then gave her a medications.

When she left the hospital she is not happy with the consultation meeting with the doctor and she keep asking herself why at times she felt that she is not truly normal.

Then she keep on questioning herself over again and again why is that at times when some people is trying to provoked her and when those people is starting to make her feels like they are trying to put herself in a threat situations and from that moments onward when she get very triggered she will starting to changed herself behaviours and from someone that is kind and soft spoken person she could somehow turned herself into a horrendous monsters.

Because when some situations happens like when she is getting provoked and when the emotional triggered is consuming her own emotions she will tend to lost control over her ownselves as that is the moments when she will starting to feels that " the other side of herself " will appears and she also knows that when it’s happening to her she is aware of what's happening inside of her own mindbit's like stucking there in the middle and there is two sides of thoughts communications is going on inside her own mind.