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How God created me (Ruxsora):

One cup of empathy
One cup of sense of humor
2 cups of kindness
3 spoons of determination
2 spoons of elegance
2 buckets of seriousness
And he accidentally spilled the whole barrel of overthinking

No, I am not shy.
No , I am not stuck up.
No , I am not anti-social.
I am just listening.I am just observing.
I am not a fan of small talks, but I will talk about life for hours.
I'd rather be home with a close friend than among a crowd of aquintances.

Respect that I am reserved. And if I open up myself to you, know that you are very special to me.

I do write long posts and even some people questioned if I was just copying and pasting it.But, I put effort into this.Yes,I do love writing these long posts about my thoughts and what I learned . However , they barely scratch the surface of what's really going on in my head.I know everything that comes to my mind is not worth sharing , and some of them can not even be put into words.But,that is what I am trying to achieve.I want to be able to write these good meaningful posts no matter how complicated my thoughts and ideas could be, I want to be able to describe them with words.Just started reading Dostoyevsky, and was amazed at how professional these writers could be at conveying people's emotions and feelings through words.

So if you take your precious time to read all this and take away something important from it, I would appreciate it💗.

I thought ,when trying to improve  my character, being able to talk to anybody is a skill that ought to be learned.
I was trying to smile more and trying to appear friendly so that I would be judged less and called "Serious" less.

But I have come to realize that the less people you talk to during the day, the more energy you save for doing your other important tasks. Being in the presence of people who always complain, find fault in someone's actions cause you to be emotionally drained during the rest of the day.You may say "I have a strong mind , I don't let others affect my mood" , but you may not realize that those people's negative energy is leaving an emotional toll on you.
While it's often encouraged to be social and engage with others as a way of building relationships and improving communication skills, it’s also important to recognize that not all social interactions are beneficial.

Interacting with negative or complaining individuals can indeed drain your energy and affect your mood, even if you try to maintain a strong mindset. Emotional exchanges happen naturally, and being around negative energy can lead to feelings of fatigue or unrest, which can impact your overall productivity and happiness.

It’s perfectly valid to choose who you spend your time with, prioritizing interactions that uplift and inspire you rather than drain you. Engaging in conversations with positive individuals or those who share your interests can be far more rewarding and energizing.

Additionally, focusing on personal growth, self-reflection, and learning about your own preferences in socializing is a vital part of character improvement. Your time and energy are precious, and surrounding yourself with uplifting influences can significantly enhance your quality of life.

Xudbin bolish yomon narsa emas.
Bazan xudbin bolishing kerak.
Bazan xudbin bolishingga togri keladi ham.

Agarda gap sening orzularing,kelajaging va maqsadlaring haqida ketayotgan bolsa, IT IS OK TO BE XUDBIN.
Har bitta berilgan taklifga ha deyishga majbur emassan.Ularga yoq deyolmiman , xafa bolishadi deb ozing xohlamagan joylarga borishing , ozing noqulay his qildiradigan odamlar orasida bolishing , "yo'q" deyishdan qorqishing ozingga hurmating yoq ekanligingdan , oz xohish va fikrlaringga etiborsizligingdan xabar beradi.

How on Earth some girls would be crying over some stupid animated characters?

This is what I thought before I stepped into this magical anime world.
And now I understand them.Every character kinda holds special place in my heart,my favourite ones , of course.And when they die,( they are not even real) , it gets me emotional.

And what I especially love about anime is character development, like how the protagonist and even side characters' personality and goals improve.I see myself in some of them.This is how I became interested in psychology, trying to understand people's motives.

And I do love talking about those characters and their changes in their life.
And animators are so good at creating these characters beautifully, I sometimes wonder how it would feel like to talk to them if they were real.

The same goes with books too

My grandma is truly a great role model for me.She is now 70.She wakes up at 3 am no matter what,yet she can be more active than me during the day.I wonder how she is so productive and finds time for everything : reading books, cooking, gardening,taking care of her grandkids and even cleaning.She also cares about herself and knows her value.

Men bilan yonimdagi o'rtog'im qilgan hazillarga ikkimizdan boshqa hech kim kulmaydi.

Ozimiz qotib kulamiz lekin.😁

Kutubxonadan kitob olishning eng katta minus taraflari bu:
* Birinchidan , o'zingniki bomagandan keyin mazza qib, chizib ,beligilab ,bo'yab o'qiyolmisan.
* Ikkinchidan, bir zo'r kitob o'qiganingdan keyin berging kelmaydi,ayniqsa qalin bolsa.

I got criticized when I used to be a huge fan of BTS , like people laughed "You stan girls?!"
And now I watch anime and people laugh saying I still watch law - quality cartoons.

People judge.It is their job.You can lie down for people to walk on you and they will still complain you are not flat enough.
So live your life.Do what makes you happy even if it is senseless to other people.