Spend my night time with them! My five precious friends, it's great to be talk about many things with they. Although we often look stupid than normal. They my crazy friends and I really love y'all. Most likely everyone must have their closest friend, be it one or two but they definitely have. So if you don't have it now, you just have to find it. There's no need to stay in toxic friendships, no need to force yourself to stuck with someone like that. Leave they and then you will get better.