I really hate how awful I am in regards to on keeping contact with others. I want a healthy and fulfilling relationships with my friends,but it's very hard for me to wholey invest myself.
I wanna talk to you,but it's difficult for me to let out the energy to do so sometimes.
I wanna hang out with you but isolation also sounds nice a lotta times.
I'll read your texts,but I'm not necessarily in the mood to reply at the moment (for days maybe 😭).then I feel anxious attempting to reach out when I do have the energy and I'm in a good mood cuz I feel like I pushed you away and you dislike me now,so I usually remain isolated.
I feel selfish sometimes but that's how I cope with this troubled identity of mine.