*I'm okay(not)*

Don't ask how I'm fairing,
I will only lie to you.
Don't tell me about the amazing things happening in your life, even if I enquire.

Don't expect me to laugh wholeheartedly to your jokes,
I'm sorry but I've lost the zeal to feel.

Don't invite me to parties,
I'll only dampen your mood and ruin your night by crying.
I'm not happy,
I once was, but not anymore.

I'm not suicidal, nor am I depressed.
I just…simply am.
I'm tired, but of what?
That bit still remains a mystery to me.

Don't call me over for sleepovers,
I'm sorry. It's not you, it's me.
I'm an emotional mess right now.

Don't leave me alone;
I can't promise that this phase will pass,
But I do know that I do not want to be alone.

Don't stop asking about how I am,
Maybe one day I'll tell you about the scars that haunt me.
The horrific tattoos I have on my skin…

I'm sorry, I am.
@sycarpoet
@sycarmbr