I am at the point where I don't control anything.I lay in bed at night with a slight hope that I will wake up tomorrow and feel less tired...less of a burden...more of a normal human being where everything I do is me getting on with my day not me out running my anxiety.I want to wake up and not feel like I am fighting a battle which can take my breath from if it ever is willing.For once I want to be in control over my darkness and say to its face "you no longer have a power over me" ...I want to say it without fearing what it could do to me if it ever notices I am trying to fight it over the control of my mind...over my body....over my soul.i am just tired of feeling exhausted.I am tired of always having to hold a flicker of light as a purpose to go on with life...I am just fucking exhausted.
-Yeab T🥀-