Johanna O'Tea writes,
Solidarity, Compassion…. Heart!?
Hi
i remember you, and us
I am practicing not being invisible.
we exist!
i’m just saying hi to you all
thinking about all the folks who are self- or otherwise labeled as spoonies and ‘addicts’ and ‘mental cases’, and other disabled folks i care about. we are all also caregivers… who i mostly don’t get to talk to…. here i am for a sec tho.
how much i’m cut off from ppl, bc not driving, bc poverty, bc sleep schedule, bc relational traumas, bc not available to do phone calls, bc geographic distance, bc others too overwhelmed to include me, or it being too complicated, bc rarity of necessary connectivity, bc my time mostly goes to surviving/navigating health care systems (that i shouldn’t be talking to much at all ugh)... bc things have gotten harder… for at least some of us...
i think about the potential for more safety… & leadership & skills & attunement… in our group bodies…. which do exist tho we may not see ourselves as part of a thing…
i think about how hard i’ve worked to have meaningful relationships and show up for people, and how i can’t do all of that anymore even if i want to, not in the same way….
no agenda here really tho
if i knew exactly what to do about it rn, i’d be doing that instead
i'm curious how much ppl are struggling, who is succeeding (especially in recovery), if anyone, and whether ppl can be honest about those things to their communities
i ponder:
what if….
we were able to organize more? as individuals navigating illness/oppression/spiritual challenge, AND-OR as communities navigating that + each other….
pondering:
i have land access… it’s a huge deal.
I think about selling…. bc i’m isolated here 95% of the time and i mainly interact in person with ppl paid to help me… who are largely failing to help me meet ongoing and recovery needs, thru no personal fault… i won’t give up anytime soon…. tho i experience (negative/horrible stuff) way too much….
how am i surviving? sometimes i’m not sure.
what is consistently helpful, strengthening, nourishing….
being on the land
herbal brews
caring for critters and plants and my space
having things to tend like occasional tea orders and my gardens
appreciating weather
intuitive public & private media
fucking cancelled podcast
ecstatic dance online weekly
soma yoga practice
samaneri jayasera
me talking with the Mystery
lovely local and highest quality foods and cooking and eating
staying in contact with visions
(sometimes) knowing what recovery is and can be
(sometimes) singing
there's also lots of things like this:
(too much) watching movies
what there isn’t… is y’all. i don’t have ppl over, i don’t visit them, i don’t reach out… i’m not putting myself out there and that’s for good reasons, but it’s also killing me. at lot of the barriers are due to the neural injuries i’m living with…
i’m scared to try for certain things, way more than i ever was.
and i’m braver than ever, at the same time….
Intuitive Invisible does recovery co-mentorship (among other things)… it’s worth exploring how each/any of us could invest in (sustainable) collaborations….
its wyrd here.
reach out if you want/can
i love you
@johannabotanica on telegram messenger
- plants and garden fun: WildFarmacy on telegram: https://t.me/+TkJN4bFEt89hZDFh
- my art gallery https://t.me/EverageJoFreshArtGalley
facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=pfbid02fjkHTuX6KahVkxzH1ec6D4UytiPPVxgXo4wJWoWrYSutJgQWqinVFTj86zCZqhsYl&id=1395295768
t.me/CareMagic/533
t.me/LifeSanctuary/73
t.me/SanctuaryPeople/81
t.me/RadioPublicaIntuitiva/2237
t.me/IntuitivePublicRadio/11669
Solidarity, Compassion…. Heart!?
Hi
i remember you, and us
I am practicing not being invisible.
we exist!
i’m just saying hi to you all
thinking about all the folks who are self- or otherwise labeled as spoonies and ‘addicts’ and ‘mental cases’, and other disabled folks i care about. we are all also caregivers… who i mostly don’t get to talk to…. here i am for a sec tho.
how much i’m cut off from ppl, bc not driving, bc poverty, bc sleep schedule, bc relational traumas, bc not available to do phone calls, bc geographic distance, bc others too overwhelmed to include me, or it being too complicated, bc rarity of necessary connectivity, bc my time mostly goes to surviving/navigating health care systems (that i shouldn’t be talking to much at all ugh)... bc things have gotten harder… for at least some of us...
i think about the potential for more safety… & leadership & skills & attunement… in our group bodies…. which do exist tho we may not see ourselves as part of a thing…
i think about how hard i’ve worked to have meaningful relationships and show up for people, and how i can’t do all of that anymore even if i want to, not in the same way….
no agenda here really tho
if i knew exactly what to do about it rn, i’d be doing that instead
i'm curious how much ppl are struggling, who is succeeding (especially in recovery), if anyone, and whether ppl can be honest about those things to their communities
i ponder:
what if….
we were able to organize more? as individuals navigating illness/oppression/spiritual challenge, AND-OR as communities navigating that + each other….
pondering:
i have land access… it’s a huge deal.
I think about selling…. bc i’m isolated here 95% of the time and i mainly interact in person with ppl paid to help me… who are largely failing to help me meet ongoing and recovery needs, thru no personal fault… i won’t give up anytime soon…. tho i experience (negative/horrible stuff) way too much….
how am i surviving? sometimes i’m not sure.
what is consistently helpful, strengthening, nourishing….
being on the land
herbal brews
caring for critters and plants and my space
having things to tend like occasional tea orders and my gardens
appreciating weather
intuitive public & private media
fucking cancelled podcast
ecstatic dance online weekly
soma yoga practice
samaneri jayasera
me talking with the Mystery
lovely local and highest quality foods and cooking and eating
staying in contact with visions
(sometimes) knowing what recovery is and can be
(sometimes) singing
there's also lots of things like this:
(too much) watching movies
what there isn’t… is y’all. i don’t have ppl over, i don’t visit them, i don’t reach out… i’m not putting myself out there and that’s for good reasons, but it’s also killing me. at lot of the barriers are due to the neural injuries i’m living with…
i’m scared to try for certain things, way more than i ever was.
and i’m braver than ever, at the same time….
Intuitive Invisible does recovery co-mentorship (among other things)… it’s worth exploring how each/any of us could invest in (sustainable) collaborations….
its wyrd here.
reach out if you want/can
i love you
@johannabotanica on telegram messenger
- plants and garden fun: WildFarmacy on telegram: https://t.me/+TkJN4bFEt89hZDFh
- my art gallery https://t.me/EverageJoFreshArtGalley
facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=pfbid02fjkHTuX6KahVkxzH1ec6D4UytiPPVxgXo4wJWoWrYSutJgQWqinVFTj86zCZqhsYl&id=1395295768
t.me/CareMagic/533
t.me/LifeSanctuary/73
t.me/SanctuaryPeople/81
t.me/RadioPublicaIntuitiva/2237
t.me/IntuitivePublicRadio/11669