“The Genesis of Her Tears”It begins with her eyes, doesn’t it?
Not the way they sparkle in rays or dart with cleverness
but the way they flood,
a betrayal of gravity,
each tear tumbling
as if the universe has failed her.
And you’re standing there,
this hollowed-out parody of a man,
with hands that don’t know how to touch without
shaking,
a voice that turns to dust
before it can form even a
clumsy comfort.
Her shoulders quake,
like a typhoon you can see
but never stop,
the kind that washes away
everything sturdy,
everything you
thought you built for her.
And you—
you stand as still as a tree
in the gale,
roots frozen,
useless,
while the wind pulls at her soul.
Your words trip over themselves
before they even leave your throat,because what could they possibly do?
What could you possibly do?
Her sobs don’t just sound.
They invade.
A war cry for a battle you
already know you’re losing.
You reach,
but the distance between you
isn’t made of air.
It’s thicker, crueler, a chasm
carved out of your
inadequacies.
You think of all the times
you promised her—
and how you were certain those promises
would be enough to shield her
from pain.
But promises don’t heal.
They don’t stand like armor
between her and the world.
And now, they’re just broken, brittle memories
trampled under the weight of her tears.
She doesn’t say it.
She doesn’t have to.
You see it in her trembling hands,
the way they clasp and unclasp as if looking for answers
you don’t have.
You’ve never felt so small,
like a single grain of sand
beneath the tide,
watching her crumble
while you remain
this pitiful statue,
an idol of all the ways you’ve failed her.
You wonder
if she hates you for this.
If she’ll look back on this night
and remember you not as the
man who tried,
but the man who stood there,
useless,
while her world shattered
around her.
But then again,
it doesn’t matter, does it?
What you feel doesn’t matter.
Her tears burn hotter than your self-pity ever could,
and you’d trade everything—
everything—
to see her smile again.
And so you try,
desperate and clumsy,
a child reaching for the stars with broken fingers.
You try to tell her you’re here,
you’re not leaving,
but the words falter,
because you know she
deserves more than your presence.
She deserves answers,
and all you have are excuses.
“There is no worse feeling,”
you think,
than watching her break
and realizing you’re no hero,
just a man too small to save her.
But still, you whisper,
half to her, half to yourself:
“Don’t cry alone.
If I can’t save you,
at least let me drown beside you.”