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Idk How To Say This But Suicide Is And Also Isn't The Way. Suicide Might Seem The Best Option Right Now To Most Of Us Tbh. And It Might Be.. But Deep Inside We All Know It Isn't. It's Like A Temporary Relief But After Sometime It Hunts You Back. Suicide Is Like Our Way Of Escaping Reality Because It Damaged Us In So Many Ways. It Is Really Hard To Resist Giving In I Know But Suicide Is Not The Way Honestly. It Just Isn't Even If We Want It To Be. Your Live Matters Even If You Think It Doesn't. So Please Don't Give In To Your Monsters Instead Let Them Fear Dead With Your Existence.
@asinnersdiary🥀
@MyDepressionNotes🥀

How many suicides does it take,
To make people realize the shit they say hurts?
@asinnersdiary🥀🙃💔

To Everyone With Depresstion,

I Know How It Feels
Believe Me It Hurts
And Breaks Your Dreams
Along With Your Heart's Emotions
That You Once Had Success
It Seriously Sucks
To Feel That Kinda Way
But What Can We Do
About It I Say
In The End It's God
In Front Of Us
That We Try To Defeat
So Is It Even A Battle
At This Point I Repeat
I Mean Sure I Know
That I Am No One
Against The Lord
So What The Hell
Am I Fighting For
And What About
All The Demons
Inside Our Soul
Is It Alright Or What
To Live With Them
With No Resistance
Against Them
Honestly I Started To Feel
Nothing At All
Against Them
Well I Used To Fear Them
But As Time Had Passed
I Would Live With Them
They Would Tell Me Stories
About Their Lonely Souls
And All The Hate They Get
From People Making False
Stories About Them
And So Sometimes You Are Fine
But Other Times You Are Insane
Can't Even Live
And Wish For It To Be Your Last Breathe
You Try To Commit Suicide
To End The Pain Inside
But End Up Failing Miserable
So In The End You Try Living It
Your Life Is It
And Wind Up Seeing A Lot Of Sights In It
Finally With A Smile You'll Say
Thank You For Giving Me
Another Chance God Had Mersy
So The Moral Of This Tragedy Is
To Never Give Up On Yourself First
Second Thing Is To Be Less Cruel
And To Be More Loving
Let People Enjoy Your Company
For Them To Feel Less Lonely
And Enjoy It
Be The Reason Someone Smiles Tonigh Darling
You Could Save A Life With It.
@asinnersdiary🥀🦋

Is it even meaningful
Living for your own self
But end up all hurt
Thinking you are not
What you always thought
You actually were
I mean it seriously doesn't make sense
But that is it's beauty I guess
So hope you do good on your deeds
And end up successfully
In the end literally
@asinnersdiary🥀✨

Dear Society,

When are you goning to stop
Consuming all the youth
Can't you see what you made us to be
You made us full of insecurities
Full of secrets and fears of rejection honestly
I don't know even what to say
I never through our society would turn out this way
A place with no freedom to express ourselves
Or even the way we think
Cuz if we ever do
We will get harassed and bullied
Because we dared to think out of the box
So what is your point tell me
I seriously don't understand your tragedy
Or even your way of thinking
Tell me why do you keep on torturing us
Isn't it enought what you toke from us
And all the people you stole from us
It makes me sad honestly
Seeing so many people suffer
And judged for trying to be differently
There isn't a day which they wouldn't get anxious
Wandering what others through of their outfits
Or why their posts didn't get enought likes
Or even what people talked behind them
Everyone is set with a cage called 'society'
It's seriously so horrible
Even worse than terrible
Sometimes they wind up thinking about all the things they are not
They think they are ugly by comparing their looks with the definition of 'beauty standards' that the society had made
And start to get all depressed when people tell them they look like shit
And end up trying to kill themselves when they finally gave up on trying
They start to think they are not meant to be
A part of this society they lived in so far
So tell me again what is the meaning of society?
Is it the nightmares that wakes you up at 3 am
With tears in your eyes
And fear in your head
Of not being good enough
Or all of the harassing they get
For looking a certain way
And acting in a different way
They start to think it's a shame
And hide all their thoughts replacing it with what society wants
They started to think they don't matter
So please try to change this society
By starting with your thoughts and words trying to treat others fairly
Then your action to be less harmfully
And then finally maybe this life could change drastically
To what everyone desires it to be
A beautiful wonderland
Full of peace and love
Or at least less lonely
And more lovely
And at least a more wanted society.🌸
@asinnersdiary🥀🌈✨

Is it to much for me
To ask for a remedy
To keep my sanity?
@asinnersdiary🥀🤷‍♀

Let me tell you a story,

Once upon a time
There used to be
A girl so sweet
So pure and neat
Full of passion
And strong impression
Of what she had
Always wanted
Which was some space
And a little bit of case
To add it all a place to call her own
With no one interfering her loan
But as she grew older
She realized her border
Was kind of too much for her
To dare and ask for
So she shut up and let it
Be her little secret
To deal with all alone
She would fake a smile
Most of the time
To hide her sadness
With a little bit of fakeness
And imposterness
She had friends to talk too
But her monster's disapproved of her too
They told her not too
Or else they would make
Her so much more miserable
And torture her till she
Wouldn't take it anymore
So she never talked about it
Not even to her own fam it
Would burden her each time
But she would supress it all the time
In order for her to be
The perfect daughter
The nice stranger
The good sister
The exellent student
The lovely existent
And best friend that everyone
Would wish to have
And all things she's not
She pretended to be someone that she's not
She became different
She became a ghost
Just to please others
That wouldn't even bother to care less
Or thank her for
What she had done for them so far
Finally she offered her self
For the devil himself
He toke her soul and brain
And showed her what she could do with her vein
If she wanted the pain
To end in an instance with no return
She could draw some lines on her wrist
And magic would burst
Relieve would reappear
Everything else will disappear
Making a beautiful masterpiece
He gathered all of her broke
Pieces piece by piece
And glued her heart to be one
And she used it for her own
And putted on a crown
Made of hate and envy
She felt for the whole society
And every happy soul she saw
With a lot of hatered
While remembering her self was shattered
With anger blinding her sight
And making her light
Turn to ash and dust
Full of monsters
She turned to madness
A little to insane
She was about to be
What you called a 'dead person'
She was alive for no purpose
So she tried to end her shitty life
But something told her not to
That she ought to
Be a stronger person
That the demon
Feed on her insecurities
And were nothing than the values
She had given to them
Her thoughts were their prey
And her strength was their enemy
So she thought about
Everything she had once thought
She had actually known until tonight
She got shock that nothing seemed to be right
So she smiled
And actually tried
To erase everything she had thought until today
And being a new life tonight
Full of happiness and madness
And passion and obsession
Intersting and busting
Of confidence and love
And all the things she dreamt about
She decided to write it out
For everyone to see and think it
And make them wonder about it
All the things she thought about
And the demons that hunted her
Made her stronger than ever
That girl is good for now at least
That girl is literally not bad you see
That girl is ME
@asinnersdiary🥀🖤🙃🌈

A part of me wants to end it all
But the other one wish is to make the pain gone
@asinnersdiary🥀💔

Dear life,

Thanks for all the ups and downs you had put for me
And all the times you had fucked me
It showed me what I could handle
And what I couldn't even battle
It made me realise my self worth
It made me over my self doubt
Thank you again for teachin me who I need and who I don't
And also for showin me the road
Also for showing me all my flaws and turnin them into my claws
And for making me stronger than I ever was
You teached me a lot
More than school could even aford ever
You gave me a great example of what made my life healthy
And what made my life also flirty
You also tough me how I ought
To get to my sensess throughfully
From get them all messilly
After going to something uneasily
But in the end I am still miserably waiting
For all the acking
To stop from happening
And for my life to start working
From where it stoped functioning
@asinnersdiary🥀💖